So there’s this girl…

28 05 2008

I spent the most amazing weekend with her… like wow! I had some realizations. I can’t really describe how i feel about her without it sounding liek some osrt of cliched movie. I guess they wouldn’t be cliched if they weren’t true. This girl completely has me wrapped around her finger! I met her family, who were all incredibly amazing and so nice and wonderful.

She is so blindingly gorgeous. its not even funny. All systems have been running in overdrive since ive been back. i was spoiled by all the time together. hopefully i’l see her sunday… AGGGGGGGGGGGGG!!!! i dunno man, this is incredible, nothing ive ever felt before. i thought i had in the past, but this is totally different…

i hsould stop before istart rambling incoherently…

I love her.

Everything else has been going. i realise i haven’t written in awhile. Being a hobo is great fun thus far. pat is a great hoboing partner, and i still get to see robicus all the time.

graceandpeace,

ross





Post Exam Furlough

11 05 2008

Oh! Hey there! you just caught me reading the dictionary. i like to exercise my mind too!

So exams felt pretty good. I’m currently in Jayme’s living room watching the first Princess diaries. I’ve only seen the second one.

So life has been going lately. I spent sometime with Chap this last week, getting a chance to work over some things. That was pretty good.

this will be a pretty scattered post I think.

I have the most amazing girlfriend in the world! even though I almost screwed it up. She kind o f saved me from myself, and helped me work over somethings out of my past. I guess there were somethings I thought i had already been over and odne wiht. I guess I wasn’t, but its getting there.

These past few months have been amazing. I’ve come to realized how blessed my life is right now. I have some wonderful people in my life right now. God has revealed so much to me. I guess I’m still trying to work through it all now.

One of those things has been placing someone incredible in my life. I can’t really express it. This girl has put a spell on me. Its, odd because my previous relationships were quicker to develop. Its been odd for me to move slow. But it is os amazing. I have gotten to know this girl ust al ittle bit i htink, but everytime I see her or call her, or leave a post on her facebook, I feel closer and closer to her, and i feel like I’m going to leanr even more. All I want ot do is spend itme with her and learn about her. This is so exciting!

What else is ogin on with me? Im trying to think, its been hard. when I htought I had ruined things, i couldn’t sleep. But she was still there for me this morning. Ahhhhh! my head is just spinning!

So anyways.. what else what else…. This New Market stuff is stressing me a bit. Iveo nly been reenacting a few years. I’ve always avoided the responsibility and politics. Now I’ve somehow taken charge of the VMI contigent, including alumnoi, and some non-vmi people Iven ever met. and I’m dealign with some “interesting”  event organizers.

I guess thats been about it. I’ve had random thoughts throughout the last couple of weeks that I’ve forgotten. perhaps I need to just have a random thoughts post sometime =/

graceandpeace

~Ross~





MYSpace Girl

22 04 2008

speaking of our fav song

 

 

 





Oh yeah! I have a blog!

22 04 2008

So Life is kind of taking off on me, and kept me form my faithful duties to this blog.

Things are going great with Tanya still. I’m actually listening to our unofficial song right now. She should be on her way back to school right now from her between term break thingy. Its been really exciting getting to know her and I think we’re getting out of that phase were we are still just getting to know each other and are really starting to learn about eachother now. its been really exciting.

I ordered my ring last week. I went with the shamrock becasue the synthetic peridot doesn’t look like a peridot what so ever. Its till a synthetic whihc has helped to keep price down on it. I’m also getting stuff together for this summer.

I was at a campaigner-style reenactment last weekend. Had a great time with a couple of the roundtable guys, and some alumni. It was really neat, we had pretty authetnic rations, and a skirmish in the deep wodds, no modern intrusions. I’m currently covered in poison oak and had ten ticks on me so far. The plus side is i don’t get pulled into room wrestling matches so much :)

Speaking of the room… Got a new roommate. He’s actually in band so i already know him, but it was a bit of suprise. Had some problems with his old roommate and needed a new place. Its been working out. He’s a big footabll player, and its just weird having a fourth. Getting used to it slowly.

I’m on the newspaper staff now. My first articles were last week. I’m on the News staff, and then I am also doing a semi-regular series reviewing old movies for the Entertainment section. I did both for last week, Im not sure if I’ll be doing the movies frequently, Its an easy way to get the hours worked off, but its another article to write, and its not required like the other one. So It may be on hold as I’m crankign out papers this time of semester.

Rob just gave me a interesting revelation. Going to Military School, specifically VMI, is al ot like being gay. You wear funny clothes, Hang out with (READ: shower with) other men, and go to parades. Wow. that is quite the revelation Rob. Sometimes I think he is a prophet.

And…. McCrary says: LOOK AT MY HAT!!!!!!

Whelp, its parade time.

Graceandpeace

~ROSS~

 





The Water Slide

15 04 2008

You’re standing at the top of the slide tower at your local water park. You’ve braved the heat, conquered the stairs, and waited in excruciatingly long lines. Now it is finally your turn! There is a precipice before you with two options. On your left is the Curly-Q. It is an open topped slide with several zig-zags and loops. You can here the excited screams of the other kids going down that slide. It looks like a lot more fun then the one on your right. The right one is dubbed The Hole. It is covered up so that the inside is dark, you can’t see down its path. From the outside you can see bumps going down it. The few patrons braving it are screaming their lungs out. While they also sound excited, there is a much more fearful tone until they hit the bottom.

You begin to head towards the Curly-Q but a life guard stops you. He says you can’t take this one; you have to take The Hole if you want to go down into the pool.  Well that seems odd… maybe he’s just messing with you. You take a step up to the Curly-Q, but the Lifeguard blocks you again! He tells you again, “take The Hole. Thats the line we put you in at the bottom.”

Well now your upset! You begin storming and huffing around the platform, throwing your fit. As you yell and scream, the Lifeguard allows even more people down the Curly-Q as you sit and pout. Depsite all the commotion the Lifeguard remains patient. Again, he calmly gives you your options. Take The Hole, or just don’t go at all. Its your choice. But, he promises with a knowing smile, you will thank him when you reach that glorious, refreshing water. He’ll even go down with you, just to make sure its alright.

You sit to ponder, peaking your head out over the edge to look down at the pool. There is an odd phenomenon going on beneath you. All those coming off the Curly-Q splash around for, at most, five or ten minutes. Then they dash off towards the Wave Pool. What is odd though, is the behavior of those coming out of The Hole. They are screaming in some sort of mix of terror, and delight. They hit the water forcefully, and are slow to come up… but when they do, they refuse to leave the pool. the Lifeguards have to corral each and everyone. Each one takes several minutes. As soon as their feet hit the deck they rush back into the line to go back down The Hole again.

You sit htere pondering this… Those on the Curly-Q certianly enjoyed the ride… but you’ve been up here a while. You’ve struggled to get to this point. Why is it that those going down the dark and bumpy Hole are so dtermined to spend as long as possible in the pool? Why are they in such a hurry to relive the experience?

The Lifeguard rest a hand on your shoulder as you stare at the slides. “Well, will you come and enjoy my pool with me now?”





Mark Schultz

11 04 2008

I thought I’d post some vids up. Mark Schultz has some of the most consistently inspiring songs of any song writer i Know. The last two are fan videos. the first is the official vid. Caution: the last one is a real tear jerker. especially today!

 now, its off for osme wall ball…

graceandpeace

~Ross~

 





Weds Night Bible Study #1

11 04 2008

As promised, my bible study review is here. Albeit belatedly. This is mostly for my benefit, to review the lesson and meditate on it more, but hey, maybe it will be useful for someone else.

So we started 1John. We ran through chapter 1, which was just loaded… I’m going to do my best to give sevice tothe conversation, but I’ve got a day of VMI fuzziness, and it was such an intense study it’ll be hard to get every detail.

Alright, so we start with a Proclamation. John tells us Christ was the one in the beggening and that He has seen and touched him. In his gospel, John begins with a simliar statement “In the beggeneing was the Word, and the Word was With God and the Word was God.”  So now we have a few things already. John is Qualifying himself, he’s also giving a topic of the letter. “Get ready, we’re about to dive into this.” He has seen and heard- THIS IS REAL! When you have one of the Twelve saying That he is talking about the Eternal One whom he has known personally, you know it is Truth. He’s not just going to be talking in superficial metaphors. He was, after all, the Beloved Disciple.

The second point is to tie this in with is the similarity to his gospel, and the calling of Jesus as the Word in both of these. I’ve always interpreted the use of Word as a reference to Law, in that “I have come not to teach the law, but to fulfill it”. Well we also have to remeber that a Word is a communication. Not only is he fulfilling the prophecies of the previous communications from God, but he is a new communication of the Love of God! He is a sacrifice, he is a gesture of love! “Word of Life”- “Expression of Life!” How beautiful!

He continues into verse 3 “We proclaim to you what we ourselves have actually seen and heard so that you may have fellowship with us. And our fellowship is with the Father and his Son, Jesus Christ.” Again, the proclamation, but know we see his intent in this letter. Through Christ being Life, the Life is Fellowship with God. That is the true Life in “Eternal Life”. We will fellowship with eachother. Fellowship, we recall is to be sharing in something. So we are all sharing across to eachother, as his blessed children, and up with him as well. What are we sharing? in the next verse John calls it “our joy” This Spirit of Life, the Spirit of Christ, is being put into the believer, and is shared with others, and the actual Spirit of God.

Next we have a concept of Light. A lot of people view light as a metaphor, but John assures us that this is directly a teaching from Jesus, and this is more of a Truth, than ametaphor necessarily. “God is light and ther is no darkness in him at all.” Lets think about what light does. Light does a few things. First, it creates darkness. When you have whats right and good, it shows what is wrong. The Light of God pierces everything, you can not hide from it, nor will you want too. he will reveal everythihng of yourself to you. It may be painful, but it is awesome in the long run! The Light acts as a beacon, If one knows they are drowning, they go towards this Light. He also lights our way. We see the direction to go when we focus ourselves in this Light and when we walk in it, our path is revealed. The Key is to live in spiritual light. You can not be in true fellowship when you are in this darkness. The Scripture calls you out on it straight up! Verse 6 “…we are not practicing truth”.

Now Verse 7 is where the preacher would ask for an “amen!”  ”But If we are living in the light, as God is in the light,” remember, he is the light whihc reveals all things to us,” then we have fellowship with each other, and the blood of Jesus, his Son, cleanses us from all sin.” Well there it all is. You have this light, that is God, that you reside in with other believers. And it is in this that we recieve the gift of grace bought by the blood.

(Note: one thing that Mr. Dekker pointed out was that we really need to appreciate this Blood. The seperation of of us from God becasue of sin is so violent, that the sacrifice had to be violent in nature. The pure blood had to be spilled, hard.)

Skipping to verse 9. We have a well known verse that I don’t think we always realize what all is goign on… “But if we confess our sins to him, he is faithful and just to forgive us our sins and to cleanse us form all wickedness”  First we have to confess. It is important to do this, it shows true repetence. “Not just saying Lord, forgive me anything I screwed up today.” instead ask him to help you remember what youve done that day and then ask forgiveness for those items. Not only are more sincere, but it is an excellent oppurtunity for self reflection.

Now look at “faithful and just to forgive us.” He is faithful, meaning he will forgive us, when we have excepted Christ, and bring about a true repetence. He is also just. he will forgive us and he OUGHT to forgive us. The penalty of sin is death, and it has been payed. He requirements for our fellowship with him have been met in that instance. He is a just God, he plays by his rules, nd they are ever correct.

He will not only forgive, he will also cleanse. When He forgives us, its him saying, “its alright. you screwed up, but I still love you, stay in my fellowship with me. but first we still need to purify you.” He will clean you up, so that you are still holy enough for this experience. Prasie Him!

The final verse is pretty straight forward. You’ve sinned, deal with it, to claim you haven’t is to call God a liar. I’m pretty sure thats a BIG no-no! But hey, I’m no Bible Scholar :/ (Read the sarcasm please)

 

Anyways… Its so amazing how cyclic we can see all of this. I love seeing cycles. We confess our sins, and he immediately brings us into this light that is his love and fellowship, and when we enter that we need to become pure, and so we continually our confessing our sins, to be forgiven and cleansed, and also, I think, to learn from them. His light envelops us.

Halelujiah ya’ll!

graceandpeace

~Ross~





Sparks Fly. AKA: Why I’m still awake at 0230

9 04 2008

So yeah…

I just had one of the most amazing experiences of my short life. Tanya came down for, what i think was our first real date was. The MIL Ball was just kind of a thing, and all of that wekeend was just one big hanging out. I’ve never been this happy.

We left off Sunday holding hands al ittle bit, but nothing really, other than a promise to call, and a mutual desire to see one another again. We more or less picked up about there tonight. We headed out to Salerno’s since Malone’s was closed. I’m glad it was too. We got the oppurtunity to sit outside and enjoy a blessed evening weather wise. We were probably htere for over an hour if I recall my watch correctly. We took a walk around the block and hit up the Daily Grind. At that point we were firmly holding hands. We sat and talked some more. (Side note: saw former rdc member Trowbridge out on a date. it was odd.) We talked about anything and everything. It was odd, there were thing I immediately let her in on that even a lot of my closer BRs don’t know about me. She opened up to me too. We just found some shared experiences, and also some slight differences that were intriguing.

Well, it just felt to early to end the night so we decided on a walk. Unless you’re a history nerd like myself, there isn’t a whole lot todo in sprawling Lex Vegas. Even then, its mostly closed up at 9 oclock at night. About the only point of interest available was Jackson’s grave. Uh… well, We went ahead and checked it out. The gates were open, even though I’m positive no one is allowed in after dark. It was a GORGEOUS night. We stood under “Old Tom Fool’s”  gaze holding, first hands, then eventually each other.

I’m frightened of a rushed relationship. I’ve done it twice, and one wasn’t too bad, one was. Either way, i regret, in some ways, how fast those went. Tanya and I have an excellent oppurtunity. We’re close enough to easily see each other while being able to maintain our regular lives. Its a nice, slow pacing.

I’ve aslo felt a certian peace. While I was nervous and excited, as any young lad in the tender arms of a beautiful maiden should feel (Okay, maybe I’m picking up more in Brit LIt then I would like), I was at peace. I felt so right just hugging her under those stars (The Heavenly kind, not Stonewalls). I also felt a certian purity too it. Its odd. I can’t describe it. So I’m not going to bother anymore, suffice to say it is goooood….

Well, after experiencing the suprising romance of a graveyard at night we held hands all the way back to Post. I’m pretty sure my feet never touched the pavement.

I’m not going to rush this, or pressure this to make it into long term expectations. I’m going to see where God lets this go I think. And i think that’ll be good. The chain of events leading to our meeting are already extraordinary. Rob just was havign a bad day and felt like being nice to someone… and viola! Also big shout out to Jaymers. The cologne she got me at Christmas apparently helped me a lot acording to Tanya. Stetson Black Ya’ll. The Lady Killer.

In other news I plan on putting my take on the Petreaus testimony up soon. “Soon” being whenever I get time to read it… The full transcript is available at OP-FOR. Their link is on the side bar. I also plan on a new weekly installment based off of My weekly bible study with Mr. Dekker. Just some notes from the meeting and personal thought and takes… Should be fun, no?

Maybe I can sleep now… Maybe I’ll play Minesweeper… its 0303

Graceandpeace

~Ross~





Class of 2010 website!

7 04 2008

The class website is more or less up! there are ring pics up!

http://www.vmi.edu/Class.aspx?tid=20663&id=21527

 





Great weekend

7 04 2008

Hey hey hey!

I had an amazing weekend. I went out to the MIL Ball, and I am so glad I did. T was so amazing. She was/IS stunning and so much fun to hang out with. I really felt this odd comfort with her. I haven’t felt it in a long time. i started to get those silly butterflies bouncing around in my stomach. I felt like she was noticing it too, but I’m so bad abotu reading girls. Finally I could not stand the little vwings banging on my ribcage anylonger so… during 21 (incidently, a good movie, tad long though!) i finally got the courage to put an arm around her. Classic Yawn/Reach combo. and she settle right into me. It was great. I’m still pretty fluttery. and she held my hand on the way to the car. I’ve already talked to her, and we’re deffinately going to be seeing eachother again soon!

ARGH!!! I am in such an amazing mood right now. I haven’t been this purely happy in so long. i really don’t want to rush it. i always rush myself, and so far I htink I’ve done a good job of just pacing myself on this one. So I’m going to do my best.

One positive is I think we realy do have pretty similiar values. I’m not sure I’ve ever been with someone at the same point i am like this. Thats something that i just can’t believe. It feels really really good. I dunno…

i guess when you do stop worrying about it, good htings can happen. I should stop treating it like a done deal. we are just getting to know eachother.

Grace and Peace

~Ross~